thoughts on love

It's amazing to me, the heart's resiliancy to heal itself and be able to open itself to the possibility of love. After flying so high and taking such a leap (you jump, I jump) and falling flat on your face the easy simple thing to do would be to crawl back into your shell and withdraw. It takes courage to put yourself out there again, to take a chance on being hurt that much again, by someone you love so much.

The heart has this amazing ability to heal after its been broken... no matter how many pieces it winds up in, it will always repair the damage, sew back the pieces and come back stronger than before. The pieces of a heart are made up of people -- we give those pieces away as tokens, as gifts. Some may deserve them, some may not. But no matter what, our hearts are a combination of a myriad of folks who have passed through your life. I love that idea, the idea that no matter how broken I may feel, that my heart has already begun its process of repair. I love how I'm affected in so many ways by the people who have passed through my life -- how their memory, their hold affects my life in such a way I could never have imagined during that meeting. So, even though the memory may be painful; even though it may hurt a little bit to recall, bless them, for their place and purpose in my life.

Falling in Love (Jodi Picoult)

"When I write about love I think of a flying squirrel. There's got to be a moment when the baby squirrel looks from one end of the branch to the tree six feet away and thinks twice about making a leap. Falling in love is no different; its the moment that we close our eyes and throw away everything that seems reasonable and hope to God that there's someone or something waiting to catch us on the other side. Either we're lucky... or we wind up bruised and battered on the ground."

~Jodi Picoult

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voice of truth

"Voice of Truth"

-Casting Crowns

Oh what I would do to have

The kind of faith it takes

To climb out of this boat I'm in

Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone

Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is

And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name

And they laugh at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The waves they keep on telling me

Time and time again.

"Boy, you'll never win!"

"You'll never win!"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story

The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!

"The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have

The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant

With just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors

Shaking in their armor

Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name

And he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me

Time and time again.

"Boy you'll never win!"

"You'll never win!"

But the stone was just the right size

To put the giant on the ground

And the waves they don't seem so high

From on top of them lookin' down

I will soar with the wings of eagles

When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus

Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

praise you in this storm

"Praise You in this Storm"
-Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes awayI’ll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find YouA
s the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Want

I want to dance with a man the way Ally dances with Noah in The Notebook.

random thoughts.

got some thoughts in my head but can't get 'em down. Gonna settle for lyrics from my new favorite CD (Riot! by paramore)... just amazing words that are hitting hard with me these days.
(for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic)
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away
I'm not so naïve
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fight shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve...

Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now.

(hallelujah)
Somehow everything's gonna fall
Right into place
If we only had a way
To make it all
Fall faster everyday

I wish I understood why people settle for a life that they aren't happy in -- with a person that makes them miserable. I wish that I understood why people don't value themselves anymore. I'd rather live my life alone, unmarried, than settle for someone who isn't the right one for me. I believe in soul mates, and I believe that there's one person out there that was concieved, created and made specifically for me. And if I don't find that person, then it wasn't meant to happen. I'd rather fill my life with my students, my animals, and all of those other things that bring happiness to my life than settle for the wrong guy and be miserable. I'd rather hurt and be in pain than be stuck in a marriage or relationship that makes me unhappy. I hate complacency -- when people get too satisfied with their lives and they just figure, well, this is it. Guess what, it's not. Complacency is akin to boredom. We were put on this earth to be extraordinary. We've been given the tools to be as such. I can't stand complacency. We should be reaching, all the time, to get out of our comfort zone and be better than we are.

also from Natalie Grant... this song when I first heard it, seriously brought tears to my eyes. it's called "Held".
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred numb our sorrow.
The wise hand opens slowly to lillies of the valley and tomorrow

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.This is what it is to be loved.And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
We'd be held....

This is what it is to be loved.
And to know, that the promise was when everything fell, we'd be held.
This is what it means to be held.